it happened....the much coveted job has now been acquired...unfortunately the much coveted may not neccessarily be the most desired - in my case anyway.
I feel like the world turns into a large sea of mediocrity after we graduate - with everyone going to work from 9-5 and having lovely cubicles and their own desks. That is what i coveted.
But what happens then? what happens to all the dreams and aspirations and what becomes of the ideals and thesises we write with bubbling passion? what happens to the vivid pictures we form in our minds of what we will become 3, 5, 10 years from today? Does the security of a periodic paycheck bury all those desired to change "things", to challenge the system? Doesnt all this bruhaha just end up sounding like sh*t? like ideals that were okay to be adopted when idealism peaked and when it was great to be pro-marxism or pro-guevara or whatever else was in fashion? dont we end up on the side of fashion by making ourselves believe we are rebelling against it?
WHat the hell am i doing ? where am i going? what happens now?
why cant i just be plain satisfied....i am lucky to get this break. and yet within these corporate walls, I am surrounded by brilliant people - sociology majors, health and nutrition majors, communications majors - who have all left their lofty goals, shoved aside the relevance of their degrees for a staid career that promises much of what we urbanites desire in today's world dominated by money and configured around the survival of the fittest.
Why cant we all leave our marks on the world?