i feel like such a loser :P
i have been studying in a "group study room" all by myself, talking to myself, writing on the blackboard for my own satisfaction and so some of these goddamn dates get into my head (yes i think writing them in big letters on a chalk board will somehow lodge them in this brain of mine for atleast the next one hour)
all for one test
patta nahi kaisa hota hai
so now that i have an hour to kill at university before i go to class, so here i am
so much to do suddenly.
i am very excited about the trip next week, but as many things go, it might not be the ultimate trip from heaven i want it to be...pessimistic? i dont know...things seem to work out when i brace myself for the worst :)
also have to start writing..really do..but somehow havent gotten time...what with watching 'the office' cds and eating :P
i must not let this opportunity pass me by...i must grab it and make the best of it..i must i must
i keep getting updates about "site traffic" on this blog and the stupid email tells me (literally) to "increase traffic!" now either i make it a point to visit this blog 12 times a day or more or i beg whoever reads this sorry piece of crap to do so :) acha im just being self deprecating. itna burra bhi nahi hai. ya hai? or i just ignore sitemeter
i must write...i must i must and i will i will
whats wrong with me ??
i sound totally demented. please ask me about marx or simmel or what the enlightenment did to society and i will answer you coherently but while im doing this rambling, coherence is the last thing on my mind
acha i was just dropping names, did you notice?
no man im really fortunate to be studying interesting stuff like this. or what i find interesting atleast. unlike "rattofying" the accounting principles A has to...i feel sorry for him and i tell him that and he says "you gotta do what you gotta do"
i tried to convince him to give it all up and start a phD ... he's total prof material..but he says im not 18 anymore..i remember reading something to the effect of "fortunate is the man who loves his work" by some famous British playwright..such kaha hai
look at me - i love what im doing (or studying) but have no idea whatsoever of what to do in the future. but if you ask me, i prefer that to doing something i totally hate and making tonnes of money.
jub job nahi milaigi tau i might just eat these words .. who knows?