wow blogspot seems to have been revamped...
i hate revamping. and modern and new stuff. hate it.
told dad that im glad they moved...especially in turbulent times...i didnt mean it. he corrected me.he said i dont agree. other people live there.
i miss my old house. i know i wouldnt have been able to live there now that im married...but i just feel a strange sense of loss....ache..never knew it would be this way. Told A how i wish i could have so much money so i could buy it back.its as if that house is an album full of beautiful photos that i dont want to lose.so many memories.

cant find the words for the tragedy. reminded me of another time..similar incident when there was chaos and firing and n uncle was late returning from work. how scared we were. i peeped out of the window and saw men with faces covered..mustve been in my early teens..but it has happened over and over again. i feel so helpless, cowardly sitting here writing from the comfort of this apartment that i feel no affiliation with, no warmth in. but im glad for the roof over my head. just as i was glad that dreary day looking at those masked men.