so many times i sat typing here, crying for the streets of karachi...missing home...thinking about my family. today , for the first time, i am sad about toronto. i am holding the tears....because i think im being overdramatic. i wanted this . i cannot cry now that i have it. because what does that mean - that i want to stay....? i know i dont want that. but then am i deliriously happy to return home? i find myself hesitating to say yes...because home can be a relative term when you leave home to build a home elsewhere and spend 4 crucial years doing just that. then returnto your original home. will i go there and think about these toronto nights as i think about the karachi moon here? the subway, the trips to the library, university, work, walks, the clear air, the lush green area behind our building, the energy of yonge and bloor, the theatre, the bus....will i miss it? it is work the gamble is it not?
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
About Me
- Name: noyaara
- Location: Karachi, Pakistan
I love to write, but its mostly not very articulate.or interesting.infact it is self indulgent.someone once told me that.so true. I moved back from Canada almost 3 years back after living there for four years. Half my blog was therefore written during that period. I'm a new mom who slightly misses her previous day job - teaching.
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